|Here we go
||[Dec. 15th, 2006|04:53 am]
The Wishbone Society
|||||Bleh but okay||]|
I had been on a low road lately.
Due to thanksgiving and everything, I've been forced to eat more than I like because of my Mom and the rest of my family. So I've been purging on a regular basis since around Thanksgiving, and I really hated it. I hate purging just because of what it has done to my teeth over the years.
I promised myself I wouldn't ever purge again a while ago, but I had to do something. Even though I know amoung other things, it slows your metabolism down so I really just feel like I've gained weight. I hate it.
I started a fast yesterday morning, and now it has been a full 24 hours since I have eaten anything- so I'm calling this successful day one.
I would like to fast for at least 13 days, but I know with xmas and etc I can't. I'm not even sure I'll be able to make it to day two because of my Mom... she'll be home most of the day today because she doesn't have to work.
I really wish I lived on my own right now. 21 years old and I still feel as though I'm a child hiding a secret. Even though my Mom does the same thing.
I don't know why I'm not having any hunger pains yet, it's kind of making me mad. I want to feel it so I can know my body is actually doing something.
Oh and yesterday I jogged for 20 minutes, walked for ten, and did a full hour aerobic work out. I'm not sure how much water I've been drinking, and I've also been taking a multivitamin (which I'm going to start taking two to three times a day).
After xmas I'm going to tell my family I'm going back to veganism so I wont be able to eat what they eat anymore. Which I hope will help and make me feel better. I'm also going to go over to Walmart or CVS tomorrow and maybe pick up some diet pills because they make me feel better knowing I'm doing everything I can.